and now every song reminds me of what we used to be.



I honestly hate this feeling right now. You'll feel helpless, lousy and undecided. And why am i having all this, honestly, i do know. And i really don't wanna talk about it because i've done enough. Had a little chat with lopez and drysdale during MT lesson and i just felt so undecided after that. That mix feelings i once had just suddenly came back to me. All those cravings and heart jumping moments surprisingly did came back. I don't wanna criticise all this feelings because i once lived every of that moment and i didn't complain.. so woudn't complains now be just another excuse to deny the truth? i'm not gonna lie to myself anymore. I've got to go with the flow. Go with my feelings. 3 more weeks to N levels. I can't let all these get to me. I'm on track. In fact, BACK on track. I've got two focus right now. Soccer, my passion. And studies, Life. so anymore would be a distract i guess... Nx year might be a year of travelling and stuff. I'm gonna keep life simple. I don't deserve too much. Maybe, i'm that kinda guy who does certain stuff other normal guys don't do because we were dedicated to somthing since young. I'm used to this kind of life. I was once scared to change life a little bit. And now, i'm afraid of trying to do that.